Today my doctor told me I may have PCOD. She explained that it was the reason for my weight gain, stomach pain and I guess I have a hump on my back (who knew). I didn't fully understand but she said more tests are needing to be ran, so I am doing them tomorrow. I didn't think it was a big deal. That was until I looked some things up on the internet.
It seams that this syndrome or disease in some cases, is because my body is not ovulating. It is the number one reason females my age are infertile. My whole world just came crashing down in 1 statement. My dream in life is to be a mom. What am I going to do if I can't have kids. My worst fears are coming true and I am officially freaking out. I know that I am not diagnosed officially with it and I have to wait for the test results, but when my doctor tells me she is 80% sure thats what it is, makes me panic.
What am I going to do? I feel that my purpose for life will be gone if I have can't have kids. I know I can adopt and I have always wanted to do that, but what about having one of my own with the man I love. What then?
I just don't know anymore. I will keep you posted about the whole situation. It just sucks.
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